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Signer_FullName: zsanett szekely
Remote Name: 65.80.0.72
Date: Friday, April 14, 2006
Time: 09:39 PM

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im so sorry


Signer_FullName: Krystal
Remote Name: 71.38.223.101
Date: Sunday, April 09, 2006
Time: 01:56 AM

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Missing you so much today John. Thank you for the time we had together. I will hold you and our memories in my heart always.


Signer_FullName: Linda (Truville) Panciarello
Remote Name: 64.12.117.12
Date: Thursday, February 16, 2006
Time: 08:06 PM

Comments

This is so tragic, I feel as if you have painted a vivid picture of John and the man he already was. Your loss is felt throughout my entire soul. I will remember John Earl Cole always, he will be apart of my prayers each and everyday. Linda (Truville) Panciarello


Signer_FullName: shanna oldfield
Remote Name: 24.117.246.178
Date: Thursday, February 16, 2006
Time: 06:01 PM

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Signer_FullName: Kelly McCullough
Remote Name: 71.96.211.220
Date: Saturday, January 28, 2006
Time: 10:05 PM

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I know the pain you feel. My husband of 14 years, the father of our 3 children was murdered 06/21/03. One of the hard things is this was done by my brother and ex best friend. Reading your story about John helped me to see that I am not the only one that feels this pain day in and day out. God Bless You


Signer_FullName: melinda blimes
Remote Name: 68.88.167.205
Date: Monday, December 12, 2005
Time: 12:42 PM

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Signer_FullName: Kara
Remote Name: 70.176.193.142
Date: Saturday, October 22, 2005
Time: 03:23 PM

Comments

I could not have said it any better. I recently lost a friend to a senseless act of homicide. ( Marcus Lee Pena, Sept. 1981 - Aug.2005 ) You have left an awesome tribute to your loved one.


Signer_FullName: Judy
Remote Name: 64.240.22.102
Date: Saturday, October 01, 2005
Time: 09:28 AM

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I am so sorry for your loss, I also lost my son to murder, my heart goes out to you.


Signer_FullName: Tammy Smith
Remote Name: 205.201.124.29
Date: Saturday, August 06, 2005
Time: 05:45 PM

Comments

reading your story helped me. I too lost a loved one - I lost my only brother in 2002.


Signer_FullName: Danelle Schoeman
Remote Name: 81.79.34.36
Date: Saturday, July 23, 2005
Time: 11:09 AM

Comments

My prayers will be with you.


Signer_FullName: ABIGAIL YZAGUIRRE
Remote Name: 204.48.116.126
Date: Thursday, July 21, 2005
Time: 08:26 AM

Comments

Hello, and May God Bless you and your family!


Signer_FullName: gary
Signer_Email: garyconcannon@rogers.com
Remote Name: 69.193.237.161
Date: Monday, July 18, 2005
Time: 01:13 PM

Comments

hi i'm so sorry for your hurt - god bless you and family. sometimes you wonder if there is a god - i was hurt at 1 year and 1 day old too and lost a mom and sister. all that happened to me was 2 broken legs. all the best to you Gary


Signer_FullName: joe foo
Signer_Email: joe foo@aol.com
Remote Name: 140.144.41.189
Date: Thursday, June 16, 2005
Time: 09:32 PM

Comments

you live in our memories


Signer_FullName: Heather Straley
Signer_Email:
Remote Name: 68.227.108.5
Date: Thursday, June 09, 2005
Time: 01:39 PM

Comments

I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope God has helped you though your time of sorrow.


Signer_FullName: Kimber
Signer_Email: Kimskorner58@aol.com
Remote Name: 64.12.116.69
Date: Saturday, May 21, 2005
Time: 12:16 AM

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Signer_FullName: alicia
Signer_Email: alicia_stover@yahoo.com
Remote Name: 156.63.116.99
Date: Friday, May 13, 2005
Time: 11:06 AM

Comments

Hi


Signer_FullName: Cristina Hodzic
Remote Name: 24.170.43.20
Date: Thursday, May 12, 2005
Time: 10:05 PM

Comments

My prayers go out to this young man's family. I also suffered the greatest loss a mother can endure - my oldest son was murdered 2002; he was 19yrs - case unsolved. All I can say is keep on asking God for strength and keep our child's memory alive because this is a loss that we will never be able to put behind us. GOD BLESS..


Signer_FullName: Lisa Briggs
Remote Name: 216.31.71.115
Date: Monday, May 02, 2005
Time: 02:56 PM

Comments

We love you and miss you dearly. See you in heaven.


Signer_FullName: Melodie Andrews
Remote Name: 216.31.71.231
Date: Sunday, May 01, 2005
Time: 08:36 PM

Comments

I am Johns cousin, and everyone misses him so much. I love you John Forever and Always.


Signer_FullName: Samantha Escobar
Remote Name: 68.96.123.173
Date: Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Time: 02:49 AM

Comments

I'm so sorry for your loss.


Signer_FullName: alice steed
Remote Name: 65.84.243.195
Date: Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Time: 03:36 PM

Comments

i am truly sorry for the loss of your child. being a parent i cant even began to understand what you and your family has gone through. may god bless you and your respectfully alice m. steed


Signer_FullName: Krystal
Remote Name: 65.100.126.233
Date: Friday, April 15, 2005
Time: 03:58 AM

Comments

Oh John how I wish you were here still. There are some days that I still cannot believe that you are gone. It has been almost 4 years and I feel we have missed out on so much in this time that could have been wonderful. I am doing all I can to make sure your memory lives on. You will always be so special to me and I know we will see each other again one day. Loving you always.......


Signer_FullName: Shaunna Conner
Remote Name: 162.1.70.75
Date: Monday, March 28, 2005
Time: 01:26 PM

Comments

I am currently a nursing student who hopes to work as a victim's advocate for those who cannot speak for themselves. May God bless you and your family.


Signer_FullName: Kim (griefnet)
Remote Name: 4.227.26.191
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Time: 05:20 PM

Comments

The loss cannot be put into words. Such a tragedy for John and everyone that loved him. Thank you for sharing this beautiful memorial.


Signer_FullName: Sandy
Remote Name: 216.148.246.151
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Time: 01:12 PM

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((((((((Krystal)))))))) What a handsome man and the poems are just heart wrenching. I'm so sorry you lost John so violently and so unfairly. I love the color Blue also! Sandy


Signer_FullName: Krystal
Remote Name: 63.231.115.251
Date: Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Time: 08:26 PM
Comments

I am thinking of you so much today. I miss you so much and wish so badly that you and I could be together again. Loving you always!


Signer_FullName: SARAH GEAHLEN
Remote Name: 64.31.96.107
Date: Monday, February 28, 2005
Time: 02:20 AM

Comments

I was strolling through tonight and came across this site. I wanted to let you know that you and your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I'm on this page because I wanted to check up on things with my nephews (brandon carpenter) web page. His page is also in this category along with John's. Death is a tragedy with us all on this earth. It comes with a lot of questions unanswered, a point of anger, and tremendous heartache! One thing that keeps me going from day to day and I hope it helps you to, is that our loved ones are never gone. They maybe in person, but in our mind, body, and soul, their still with us, because we carry them with us everyday. You may not know it, but they are with you now and forever!! Someday, we will all be reunited and with them again. God bless you and my the lord bring you strength and comfort from this moment forward, tomorrow, within the years to come and for eternity!!


Signer_FullName: quonya williams
Remote Name: 68.45.227.101
Date: Monday, February 14, 2005
Time: 10:29 PM

Comments

I am truly sorry for your loss. I lost my first love which is also my daughter's father to a gun so I feel your pain. I am sorry and I send you my sympathy


Signer_FullName: Bernadine Bennett
Remote Name: 67.162.215.120
Date: Saturday, February 05, 2005
Time: 11:26 PM

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You pretty much summed up how it feels. I am further down the road of recovery. My grandson, who lived with me all of his life, was killed in 1992. He was 24. I have been a member of POMC since one month after his death. I have seen people finally recover and I believe that I am one of those myself. Not to say that I am back to where I started, but at least I am able to enjoy things again without feeling guilty. Let's say I am able to cope now. It sounds impossible but I do pray that you will find out who is responsible for your son's death.


Signer_FullName: KAREN
Remote Name: 172.190.115.175
Date: Saturday, January 15, 2005
Time: 02:14 PM

Comments

I'm from Glasgow and gun culture is growing here fast and strong. I pray to god I never have to deal with a loss like yours. god bless


Signer_FullName: Tiffany
Remote Name: 69.15.50.202
Date: Thursday, December 30, 2004
Time: 11:53 AM

Comments

I wish you all happiness and peace, May god bless your family.


Signer_FullName: kathy scott
Remote Name: 69.154.196.145
Date: Saturday, December 18, 2004
Time: 05:48 AM

Comments

bless you john, my prayer are with you.


Signer_FullName: nikki
Remote Name: 67.65.240.7
Date: Friday, October 15, 2004
Time: 01:17 PM

Comments

I'm so sorry about your loss. he seemed like such a wonderful person, my name is nikki and I am 14 yrs old, and I thought I would write you because I've been through almost the same thing, my best friend was shot in her leg by her step dad and her mom was killed. i miss her but i know she's in a better place, just like john. again I am sorry, I will pray for all of you.


Signer_FullName: Kim
Remote Name: 207.236.117.172
Date: Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Time: 10:17 AM

Comments

I'm so sorry about your son. I hope that you feel better soon


Signer_FullName: MICHAEL ELRIDGE
Remote Name: 209.78.122.254
Date: Thursday, October 07, 2004
Time: 03:59 PM

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Signer_FullName: lizzie
Remote Name: 62.252.64.14
Date: Monday, October 04, 2004
Time: 05:10 PM

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Signer_FullName: DIANNE THOMPSON
Remote Name: 81.154.11.237
Date: Thursday, September 23, 2004
Time: 04:26 PM

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R.I.P - I know the feeling of being isolated and alone. My mum got murdered. God took the best first. R.I.P. john


Signer_FullName: ALicia MArshall
Remote Name: 216.177.4.202
Date: Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Time: 09:40 AM

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Signer_FullName: Krystal
Remote Name: 168.103.119.142
Date: Thursday, September 09, 2004
Time: 03:09 PM

Comments

I miss you John.......


Signer_FullName: Jenna Endorf
Remote Name: 204.234.242.200
Date: Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Time: 01:31 PM

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Signer_FullName: robin mariconi girillo
Remote Name: 149.174.164.83
Date: Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Time: 12:20 AM

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I too lost my only son Christopher to murder nov.7, 2003. his killer is in jail pending trial, but I must tell you that if he serves 1 year or life, justice will not be done, because my son will never be coming home. i know the pain and agony you are talking about and my heart breaks for each and every one of us. Chris was also in the wrong place at the wrong time. If one more person tells me it was his time or God's plan I'm going to scream. No God I know would have a mother endure such agony. It does actually feel like your heart was ripped out and you're right, a part of us dies right along with them. my prayers and thoughts will be with you and your family...in sorrow, robin, chris' mom


Signer_FullName: Valerie Gilsenan
Remote Name: 81.156.139.41
Date: Friday, August 27, 2004
Time: 02:46 PM

Comments

My prayers are with you - God bless you all


Signer_FullName: Christina
Remote Name: 24.126.226.155
Date: Saturday, August 14, 2004
Time: 11:57 PM

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Signer_FullName: R
Remote Name: 24.231.197.74
Date: Sunday, July 25, 2004
Time: 03:56 PM

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I truly hate what you had to endure. I am a survivor of murder, my husband was murdered in 1995. I thought I would never make it through, but take it from me it gets better with time. I know its hard to hear these words because so many people tells u that, but take it from me, i am a survivor, you will never forget but, your grief changes. you'll find yourself one day laughing and remembering all the things that you had done. These memories will comfort you and one day replace the hurt with love and a strange kind of peace that only u and he shared. That's when you find yourself free from the pain, and that will make u a survivor too..


Signer_FullName: Mandy
Remote Name: 216.76.216.70
Date: Thursday, July 22, 2004
Time: 10:39 PM

Comments

I miss John each and every day and find myself thinking about him often.....I wish I was still in New Mexico to help you guys with your grief. I find myself having some problems of my own over it and would like to hear from you all. I loved the site and I know John would to if he was still here.


Signer_FullName: regina Wells
Remote Name: 64.28.253.44
Date: Monday, July 05, 2004
Time: 10:54 AM

Comments

It was very beautiful. I especially liked the poem at the end, From a friend in heaven. Reminds me and helps me deal with the death of my son Joseph.


Signer_FullName: Sarah
Remote Name: 149.174.164.78
Date: Monday, June 28, 2004
Time: 05:01 PM

Comments

God Bless!


Signer_FullName: Danny B
Remote Name: 64.207.70.114
Date: Thursday, June 24, 2004
Time: 12:21 AM

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life goes on-even after 3 years but I know that for one gal life has sort of stopped - I pray for her because John is still so much of her life and maybe God has wanted it that way. So life does go on and john is remembered by many. May all of you-find peace, love and we must understand -life is going on and we are part of that wonderful life. God has a plan but I know for a fact -that for me -once I quit asking God-why??-Just giving thanks to God and let His will be done. Then life was understandable-because who are we to ask-judge-HIM. The joy is we did get to know John-the love-happiness-joy -he did bring to so many-Now that is the real blessing-Ain't it worth it all.


Signer_FullName: MOM.VIOLA DEASON
Remote Name: 64.12.117.9
Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Time: 05:32 PM

Comments

I know I can never comfort you or take the hurt away like I wish I could so you didn't hurt so much but I know that as beautiful as the rainbows are and as much as john was loved, he is looking down on you and smiling big because he is so proud of you...i miss him too...thank you for sharing this with me he was all that and then some....


Signer_FullName: Misty Montgomery
Remote Name: 24.24.87.195
Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Time: 01:38 PM

Comments

Beautiful memorial to John. He would be so proud. I'm so sorry for your loss and wish you nothing but love, light, and happiness in your future.


Signer_FullName: Janice
Remote Name: 64.207.70.114
Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Time: 09:38 AM

Comments

I love you Krystal, and think of you and John every time I see a rainbow. You have been a blessing to Danny with your calls and emails - so I know you had to be a blessing to John whom you loved so much. God's grace be with you.


Signer_FullName: tricia fredette
Remote Name: 24.92.59.155
Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Time: 07:27 AM

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I didn't get to meet john but I know how much he was loved. he was the world to Krystal. I remember calling her to surprise her with a ticket to visit me in ny and john was in the background. she didn't want to miss his bday. I had no idea it was his b'day but Krystal decided to come. she planned on celebrating with him when she got home and calling him on is bday. she had hidden his bday gifts and was going to have him hunt for them as she was talking to him. little did we know that day was not going to come. my heart broke for Krystal and john's family when I got the news of his passing. he was so young. very missed but not forgotten.


Signer_FullName: evonne
Remote Name: 205.188.113.37
Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Time: 04:41 AM

Comments

Words are never enough when you lose someone you love but you were so blessed to have had the love of a lifetime. What an awesome memorial.


Signer_FullName: LaVerne Corpuz from Kauai, Hawaii
Remote Name: 4.13.224.208
Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Time: 01:06 AM

Comments

Krystal Deason & I found each other and became friends by playing Bingo. As we strengthened our friendship as sisters, she shared John's story with me. My heart was saddened and tears flowed from my eyes. I too lost a sister, 18 yrs of age. She left my 2 week old niece for mama to care for along with her childhood sweet heart her husband Ali. A drunk driver hit head on on the passenger side where my sister sat. I am so sorry for the loss of John. Know that our Lord proclaimed that he prepares a place for us when our time comes. Let us rejoice & be glad in it. Our mission here on earth has not yet been accomplished. If one of us goes before the other please say hello to Melinda Marie Balocan Ayudan...I will do the same for you to John....Aloha & God bless all of you, LaVerne

 

 

 









 

 





 

 
 
   

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